[He doesn't bother to speak further. He lets his mind go freely.
The beach, the ghost, the mission. He guards his blind side and his heart. His defenses go up to compensate for when he feels he can't be completely self sufficient. He demands perfection from himself and doesn't allow for wavering, because to be vulnerable is to be weak, and to be weak is to be exploitable, to be exploitable is to be an object, and to be an object is to give way to what he values most.
He doesn't see his own strength where it matters. Perhaps he sees the moments of failure in bright red even when the field behind him is coated in the blossoms of his successes, and hides from the concerns that make that red harder to walk over and see for what it is.]
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[He doesn't bother to speak further. He lets his mind go freely.
The beach, the ghost, the mission. He guards his blind side and his heart. His defenses go up to compensate for when he feels he can't be completely self sufficient. He demands perfection from himself and doesn't allow for wavering, because to be vulnerable is to be weak, and to be weak is to be exploitable, to be exploitable is to be an object, and to be an object is to give way to what he values most.
He doesn't see his own strength where it matters. Perhaps he sees the moments of failure in bright red even when the field behind him is coated in the blossoms of his successes, and hides from the concerns that make that red harder to walk over and see for what it is.]