We both lived, in some manner. [But he cannot consider his mother enjoying life... Still, he has to hope that one day, she will return to herself.]

That is why I began to fight, why I threw everything away in order to turn into a monster-- though she already saw a monster on my face, and screamed as if viewing untold horrors whenever I met her with my face bare. It's not a pleasant visage, in any case. [Especially when that twin made such ugly expressions that Ithaqua just does not want to see them on his own.

Then he reaches out to cup Urianger's cheek.]

I've not been considered human in so long, but what I shall become in the future, I do not know yet because I don't believe the transformation is close to ending.