( In this declaration, Mika recognizes something; not necessarily in word, but in feeling: the sense of being safe, that he's wanted all along.
His fingers curl into Ginger's skin. He wishes he were better at words, instead of just action. Forget how to keep Ginger loving him - he just wants to think about how he can make Ginger feel just as loved in return. )
... Okay.
( He'd always worry, likely. At least a little bit. He'll always have some part of him that asks if this much is too much - is this too much to hope Ginger will gather? Is this too much to expect Ginger to hold? But for once this thought occupies a minority in his mind. )
I believe you.
( And it's so, so hard to make Mika believe.
He hesitates, but: )
... In the morning... we'll find someone to heal you. ( Reiterating what Ginger said before. And then: ) And I'll come with you. And I... want to be with you after that. And the day after that. And the day after that. If that's fine. Because...
( Realistically, he knows it won't be a consecutive interaction. They're busy little wizards, and Mika still hasn't forgotten Ginger needs nights to himself. But! But. In sentiment, he wants to. He thinks he wants to be around Ginger a lot more. And he's fine with them parting (because how else will he be able to watch him from afar, and see what Ginger does when he's not with Mika?).
Still. There will always be a part of him that will want to be alone in the world with the person he cares about. He accepted Yuu's horizons had grown beyond him, but the small and childish side of him still remained, however faint, and it wanted to be Yuu's everything.
He thinks he can feel that want budding, here, too. He knows he has to temper it - even though he doesn't truly mind when Ginger has expressed, in a more piecewise way, the same to him. )
... I don't think my feelings can ever change. ( No caveat. Ginger doesn't even need to stay Ginger. Simply the concept of Ginger is enough. ) So. If you ever have to carry them... just know they're probably all thoughts about you.
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His fingers curl into Ginger's skin. He wishes he were better at words, instead of just action. Forget how to keep Ginger loving him - he just wants to think about how he can make Ginger feel just as loved in return. )
... Okay.
( He'd always worry, likely. At least a little bit. He'll always have some part of him that asks if this much is too much - is this too much to hope Ginger will gather? Is this too much to expect Ginger to hold? But for once this thought occupies a minority in his mind. )
I believe you.
( And it's so, so hard to make Mika believe.
He hesitates, but: )
... In the morning... we'll find someone to heal you. ( Reiterating what Ginger said before. And then: ) And I'll come with you. And I... want to be with you after that. And the day after that. And the day after that. If that's fine. Because...
( Realistically, he knows it won't be a consecutive interaction. They're busy little wizards, and Mika still hasn't forgotten Ginger needs nights to himself. But! But. In sentiment, he wants to. He thinks he wants to be around Ginger a lot more. And he's fine with them parting (because how else will he be able to watch him from afar, and see what Ginger does when he's not with Mika?).
Still. There will always be a part of him that will want to be alone in the world with the person he cares about. He accepted Yuu's horizons had grown beyond him, but the small and childish side of him still remained, however faint, and it wanted to be Yuu's everything.
He thinks he can feel that want budding, here, too. He knows he has to temper it - even though he doesn't truly mind when Ginger has expressed, in a more piecewise way, the same to him. )
... I don't think my feelings can ever change. ( No caveat. Ginger doesn't even need to stay Ginger. Simply the concept of Ginger is enough. ) So. If you ever have to carry them... just know they're probably all thoughts about you.