[ Right now? To Ginger. And other times, other people. He's a Chosen of Serenity, a Joybringer, but how can he try to bring serenity into people's lives if he himself cannot muster contentment?
So maybe it's foolish of him to find himself thinking back to the way Ginger carried himself that night ("Have you ever hated yourself?") and wish he could love Ginger until a time came when he could be at peace with himself. So that he doesn't have to fear being a disappointment too.
...He's aware of the hypocrisy of this. ]
Even though it'll change this? [ "This", whatever shape this friendship is. "Will", not "if", because Day cannot imagine too many things won't be cast in a different light if he's at all honest. ]
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So maybe it's foolish of him to find himself thinking back to the way Ginger carried himself that night ("Have you ever hated yourself?") and wish he could love Ginger until a time came when he could be at peace with himself. So that he doesn't have to fear being a disappointment too.
...He's aware of the hypocrisy of this. ]
Even though it'll change this? [ "This", whatever shape this friendship is. "Will", not "if", because Day cannot imagine too many things won't be cast in a different light if he's at all honest. ]