[ For such a small, skinny bastard, he's persistent; from personal experience, that would dislodge most people, but there's a feral desperation that seems to radiate off him in waves, both in the furious snarls and the snap of his teeth. He doesn't retreat his leg so much as he tries to use it to keep him a bit aways, but it doesn't quite work as planned.
The teeth which dig in deeper, and despite the lack of pain, he can still feel the tearing of his skin. It's just numbed, faintly washed away, but even with the conflicting waves of pleasant comfort that accompany the pulse of blood on his skin and the stick of his shirt to his skin-
Fingers clench in his hair, pull, and anger wins out as his head snaps to the side. No, not even quite anger— it's just frustration. He knows all what it feels to lose control, even if the ways are far different, which is why his voice is so rough, so irritated, fingers clenching taut even with the painful grip digging into the meat of his arm. ]
You fucking moron— [ A growl for a snarl, even if it's strained. ] Wake the hell up!
[ And while Shinji's got one arm in a vice-grip, his other is free, and it's with a balled fist that he abruptly jerks it back and promptly tries to slam it into the side of Mika's face. And if it does work, even for a second, he'll take the opportunity to try and throw the other off him bodily...preferably away from Tatara. There's an unsteadiness from the dizzy throb of his skull, but it doesn't diminish his strength any. ]
( You've gotta hand it to him, Shinji's got a mean right hook.
The impact of the punch is enough to rip Mika's fangs from Shinjiro's neck, but it's a bloody affair - bloodier than it already was. He staggers back, his grip on his hair come loose but his grip on his arm held fast - this time not as a threat, but as an anchor to keep him from falling off balance.
And in that moment, he's disoriented - blood smeared on his face like a horror, his expression now is closest to human as it has been this entire night. He's... confused. )
... Ah...?
( Every point of impact hurts, wherever Shinji got him. The pain isn't much, but there's this pulsing ache that reminds him something happened, more than once.
He lets go of Shinji's arm, stumbling back - and for a moment he regrets it, once he realizes the scent of blood is a few inches farther. And then he catches himself. Is this what this was all about? Blood?
His gaze is a little vague, but comes better into focus - he sees Shinji; but the scent of blood is stronger - suggests more blood spilt than Shinji's injury could have given. His gaze falls down to Tatara...
( Deer in the headlights, Mika doesn't speak - and then, suddenly, he turns on his heel— as if to run.
In this moment, he isn't thinking of helping or hiding. He just thinks he needs to get away from here, the scene of the crime, the proof of what he is, and just - he doesn't know. Hide in the woods again. Seal himself in a cave. Die there, maybe, this time. What was the point of being forced alive again if he was just going to have to live like this again, without any Yuu to protect?
But he probably wouldn't make it far, even if he got away. Not knowing Tatara is as badly injured as he is, and Shinjiro took some gashes, too. )
[ If there's one thing Tatara can do, it's hang on.
He feels himself drift, and he pulls himself back. He feels his fingers numb, and he forces a breath. When he thinks he's dying in Tokyo all over again he reminds himself he's just had a little run-in, here, at the manor. It'll be fine. He'll be fine.
As much as he tries to focus his eyes all he can really take in are the scuffling figures. His fingers dig into the carpet to try and give himself enough grip to push himself up and get a better look, but it's tough. He keeps reminding himself to breathe and he keeps searching for strength in his body. The moments drag and fill with him reminding himself, over and over.
It's when the unfamiliar voice yells wake up that he finally musters himself somewhat upright. The gash on his neck hurts, and his vision is blurry, but he's okay. Mostly. He blinks, and he sees the two figures. One, Mika. The other, he doesn't recognize.
More importantly— ]
Mika-chan...
[ He says this weakly. His neck hurts. He wishes he could say it louder with the usual comfort in his tone, but he sees the way the vampire turn and he doesn't want him to go. ]
[ Ah, that rips. His knuckles slam into the side of Mika's face, and with that comes the removal of the teeth from his skin; not without consequence, of course. They rip, tearing out of his flesh, and with it comes the scraping pain. There's nothing numbing it down, no pleasant waves to drown it out, but all he can do it grit his teeth and swallow his saliva.
He's felt worse. He's lived through worse. The bullets had hurt, perhaps worse than this, and he can handle this much.
Hand flying up his shoulder in an attempt to staunch the bleeding, he takes one step back as Mikaela does in turn. There's a light in the other's eyes now, a sense of humanity there wasn't before, and perhaps the impact had had the effect he'd hoped it would.
But that doesn't quite matter, because in the next moment, he's turned to bolt, and Shinji's abruptly lunging forward to latch tight onto one of his arms to prevent his escape. This probably makes him a hypocrite in some way, he thinks, between the beat of his heart and blood pulsing through his fingers. But he can't let him go. ]
Idiot, why the hell are you running away? [ It's a hiss, and his grip tightens as much as possible. In this moment, he's seeing himself, on the dark night of October 4th. ] Do you think that's gonna fix it? You can feel sorry for yourself after you deal with it...!
[ Otherwise, what will he do? What he did, perhaps, to go wallow and try and forget? Or something else, that's also crossed his mind in recent years, when the memories get nearly too much to bear? Either way, he won't allow it; not because he wants to make amends, but because he doesn't want someone to make the same mistake.
His gaze snaps down to Tatara as the movement, the wheeze, and he gives a frustrated growl before he promptly pulls his hand back to start pulling his coat off. Tearing it will take too long, too much effort, when the other man is already so pale. ]
Dammit. If you've got the energy to try and run off from the scene, [ He's pressing the cloth to the older man's neck, eyes dark beneath the shadow of a mussed beanie. ] you can go and get some damn help. Now!
[ Hopefully, the dark will swallow up the way his hands are shaking. ]
( It's Tatara's strained voice that falters his step, that split-second long enough to let Shinjiro grab him, berate him - fairly, correctly; not with words Mika can argue with. He doesn't turn. His arm is taut as the whole of him strains away from Shinji, like a wild animal caught - but he hears him, and he grits his teeth, and he doesn't argue, not a word.
He can't fix anything. He can only break. He could justify the harm he did so long as he had to stay alive to protect Yuu; but now - what reason does he have to explain why he's still here?
When Shinji finally lets go to attend to Tatara, Mika stumbles, but hesitates; still poised to run, but torn. He sees them over his shoulder, out of the corner of his eye, and the way the blood glistens in the moonlight, and he feels
hunger twist his stomach, and temptation at his back, again. It overwhelms his fear. It overwhelms his regret. It reminds him of what he is, in the end - a creature that feeds, and feeds, and feeds.
It's Shinji barking orders that jostles him back to reality, and without a word he looks forward again - and takes off, without a word.
It's not clear if he really intends to get help, but the pivot in his step makes it clear enough, at least, that he's not heading toward any manor exit this time, but toward the portion of the building where everyone sleeps.
He can't fix things, and he can't do any good. But other people can. And maybe he can manage that much. )
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The teeth which dig in deeper, and despite the lack of pain, he can still feel the tearing of his skin. It's just numbed, faintly washed away, but even with the conflicting waves of pleasant comfort that accompany the pulse of blood on his skin and the stick of his shirt to his skin-
Fingers clench in his hair, pull, and anger wins out as his head snaps to the side. No, not even quite anger— it's just frustration. He knows all what it feels to lose control, even if the ways are far different, which is why his voice is so rough, so irritated, fingers clenching taut even with the painful grip digging into the meat of his arm. ]
You fucking moron— [ A growl for a snarl, even if it's strained. ] Wake the hell up!
[ And while Shinji's got one arm in a vice-grip, his other is free, and it's with a balled fist that he abruptly jerks it back and promptly tries to slam it into the side of Mika's face. And if it does work, even for a second, he'll take the opportunity to try and throw the other off him bodily...preferably away from Tatara. There's an unsteadiness from the dizzy throb of his skull, but it doesn't diminish his strength any. ]
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The impact of the punch is enough to rip Mika's fangs from Shinjiro's neck, but it's a bloody affair - bloodier than it already was. He staggers back, his grip on his hair come loose but his grip on his arm held fast - this time not as a threat, but as an anchor to keep him from falling off balance.
And in that moment, he's disoriented - blood smeared on his face like a horror, his expression now is closest to human as it has been this entire night. He's... confused. )
... Ah...?
( Every point of impact hurts, wherever Shinji got him. The pain isn't much, but there's this pulsing ache that reminds him something happened, more than once.
He lets go of Shinji's arm, stumbling back - and for a moment he regrets it, once he realizes the scent of blood is a few inches farther. And then he catches himself. Is this what this was all about? Blood?
His gaze is a little vague, but comes better into focus - he sees Shinji; but the scent of blood is stronger - suggests more blood spilt than Shinji's injury could have given. His gaze falls down to Tatara...
Ah,
Ah. )
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In this moment, he isn't thinking of helping or hiding. He just thinks he needs to get away from here, the scene of the crime, the proof of what he is, and just - he doesn't know. Hide in the woods again. Seal himself in a cave. Die there, maybe, this time. What was the point of being forced alive again if he was just going to have to live like this again, without any Yuu to protect?
But he probably wouldn't make it far, even if he got away. Not knowing Tatara is as badly injured as he is, and Shinjiro took some gashes, too. )
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He feels himself drift, and he pulls himself back. He feels his fingers numb, and he forces a breath. When he thinks he's dying in Tokyo all over again he reminds himself he's just had a little run-in, here, at the manor. It'll be fine. He'll be fine.
As much as he tries to focus his eyes all he can really take in are the scuffling figures. His fingers dig into the carpet to try and give himself enough grip to push himself up and get a better look, but it's tough. He keeps reminding himself to breathe and he keeps searching for strength in his body. The moments drag and fill with him reminding himself, over and over.
It's when the unfamiliar voice yells wake up that he finally musters himself somewhat upright. The gash on his neck hurts, and his vision is blurry, but he's okay. Mostly. He blinks, and he sees the two figures. One, Mika. The other, he doesn't recognize.
More importantly— ]
Mika-chan...
[ He says this weakly. His neck hurts. He wishes he could say it louder with the usual comfort in his tone, but he sees the way the vampire turn and he doesn't want him to go. ]
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He's felt worse. He's lived through worse. The bullets had hurt, perhaps worse than this, and he can handle this much.
Hand flying up his shoulder in an attempt to staunch the bleeding, he takes one step back as Mikaela does in turn. There's a light in the other's eyes now, a sense of humanity there wasn't before, and perhaps the impact had had the effect he'd hoped it would.
But that doesn't quite matter, because in the next moment, he's turned to bolt, and Shinji's abruptly lunging forward to latch tight onto one of his arms to prevent his escape. This probably makes him a hypocrite in some way, he thinks, between the beat of his heart and blood pulsing through his fingers. But he can't let him go. ]
Idiot, why the hell are you running away? [ It's a hiss, and his grip tightens as much as possible. In this moment, he's seeing himself, on the dark night of October 4th. ] Do you think that's gonna fix it? You can feel sorry for yourself after you deal with it...!
[ Otherwise, what will he do? What he did, perhaps, to go wallow and try and forget? Or something else, that's also crossed his mind in recent years, when the memories get nearly too much to bear? Either way, he won't allow it; not because he wants to make amends, but because he doesn't want someone to make the same mistake.
His gaze snaps down to Tatara as the movement, the wheeze, and he gives a frustrated growl before he promptly pulls his hand back to start pulling his coat off. Tearing it will take too long, too much effort, when the other man is already so pale. ]
Dammit. If you've got the energy to try and run off from the scene, [ He's pressing the cloth to the older man's neck, eyes dark beneath the shadow of a mussed beanie. ] you can go and get some damn help. Now!
[ Hopefully, the dark will swallow up the way his hands are shaking. ]
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He can't fix anything. He can only break. He could justify the harm he did so long as he had to stay alive to protect Yuu; but now - what reason does he have to explain why he's still here?
When Shinji finally lets go to attend to Tatara, Mika stumbles, but hesitates; still poised to run, but torn. He sees them over his shoulder, out of the corner of his eye, and the way the blood glistens in the moonlight, and he feels
hunger twist his stomach, and temptation at his back, again. It overwhelms his fear. It overwhelms his regret. It reminds him of what he is, in the end - a creature that feeds, and feeds, and feeds.
It's Shinji barking orders that jostles him back to reality, and without a word he looks forward again - and takes off, without a word.
It's not clear if he really intends to get help, but the pivot in his step makes it clear enough, at least, that he's not heading toward any manor exit this time, but toward the portion of the building where everyone sleeps.
He can't fix things, and he can't do any good. But other people can. And maybe he can manage that much. )