[Intentionally, anyway, and he knows it might happen accidentally. But he's willing to take that risk, especially because Mika will benefit tremendously too.]
I'm really glad. You really went to Tara 'bout it? What did he have to say 'bout it?
[But it's also okay if he fails, because Malice has more or less accepted that this is how things are. Mika would take it worse if he was aware of the plan and it didn't work out, he thinks.]
Speakin' of that... you got any idea 'bout what'll happen once we're done here? Haven't spoken to Laz or Tara 'bout that myself.
[Partially because it's assuming they'll win and he doesn't want to do that, but mostly because... well, he sort of doesn't really want to think about it. The question is a bit hesitant, unlike what Malice usually says, which probably says a lot on its own.]
[ He falls a little quiet at Malice's question. That's something to consider, isn't it? ]
Not really.
[ Because they both need to return home, even if Malice's stay will only be for a little while -- still, though, will he be stuck there, with no way to...? ]
It's worth talking to them about it, I think, but... Are you worried?
[He doesn't like admitting it, but he isn't going to pretend that he's not worried. That would be stupid. Of course he's worried.]
I've gotta go home to wrap things up. But if I get stuck there... I dunno, there's not really anythin' for me to do there once I've killed Rosalie an' Lotisse.
[He glances away, lifting his shoulders a bit in a shrug.]
'Course... I'm worried 'bout what'll happen with us. I dunno how things are gonna go, y'know? I kinda don't wanna start thinkin' 'bout it, 'cause I may never stop.
[He doesn't belong in Yamato's world, that much is certainly clear. But Yamato has his friends to go back to and so much to live for there that it would be cruel to ask him to stay in this world. And that's not even considering that they may not be able to stay in this world at all... or even return from their own. Assuming they can even go back in the first place, that is. It's a lot, and Malice shakes his head.]
[ He'll try his best to be reassuring. He might be hiding some of his own worries right now, mostly because it's his way of keeping himself from thinking about it nonstop, too, but he reaches for Malice's hand and gives it a little squeeze. ]
I told you that we'd figure something out, right? I don't want to take that back. We'll get it sorted.
[ Will they? He's not sure, but -- he has to try to keep the idea alive. Otherwise... ]
It's fine to be worried, but let's be patient and see what we can learn from those who know more than we do.
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Good. That's -- I thought you might like it. I have Mika in mind for it, too. If you'd be willing to try it out first, I'd appreciate it.
[ He won't hurt Malice, he swears on that, but he'd rather try this out with someone he can work well with. Mika might be more reluctant. ]
I talked with Tatara about it. Sounds like it's very much a possibility.
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[Intentionally, anyway, and he knows it might happen accidentally. But he's willing to take that risk, especially because Mika will benefit tremendously too.]
I'm really glad. You really went to Tara 'bout it? What did he have to say 'bout it?
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[ This is his goal, while he's here. He wants to make Malice happy, and that extends to Mika, too. ]
I'll try my best to figure it out before we leave.
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[But it's also okay if he fails, because Malice has more or less accepted that this is how things are. Mika would take it worse if he was aware of the plan and it didn't work out, he thinks.]
Speakin' of that... you got any idea 'bout what'll happen once we're done here? Haven't spoken to Laz or Tara 'bout that myself.
[Partially because it's assuming they'll win and he doesn't want to do that, but mostly because... well, he sort of doesn't really want to think about it. The question is a bit hesitant, unlike what Malice usually says, which probably says a lot on its own.]
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Not really.
[ Because they both need to return home, even if Malice's stay will only be for a little while -- still, though, will he be stuck there, with no way to...? ]
It's worth talking to them about it, I think, but... Are you worried?
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[He doesn't like admitting it, but he isn't going to pretend that he's not worried. That would be stupid. Of course he's worried.]
I've gotta go home to wrap things up. But if I get stuck there... I dunno, there's not really anythin' for me to do there once I've killed Rosalie an' Lotisse.
[He glances away, lifting his shoulders a bit in a shrug.]
'Course... I'm worried 'bout what'll happen with us. I dunno how things are gonna go, y'know? I kinda don't wanna start thinkin' 'bout it, 'cause I may never stop.
[He doesn't belong in Yamato's world, that much is certainly clear. But Yamato has his friends to go back to and so much to live for there that it would be cruel to ask him to stay in this world. And that's not even considering that they may not be able to stay in this world at all... or even return from their own. Assuming they can even go back in the first place, that is. It's a lot, and Malice shakes his head.]
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[ He'll try his best to be reassuring. He might be hiding some of his own worries right now, mostly because it's his way of keeping himself from thinking about it nonstop, too, but he reaches for Malice's hand and gives it a little squeeze. ]
I told you that we'd figure something out, right? I don't want to take that back. We'll get it sorted.
[ Will they? He's not sure, but -- he has to try to keep the idea alive. Otherwise... ]
It's fine to be worried, but let's be patient and see what we can learn from those who know more than we do.
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...Yeah. 'Course we will.
[His expression softens a bit, into something apologetic.]
Sorry. I know you're just as worried 'bout this as I am. An' I know it's a lot to think 'bout, especially when we've got so much else goin' on.
I ain't good at bein' patient, but I'll try.
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[ Gently, he brushes his thumb against the back of Malice's hand. ]
And if the food thing works out, I think it'll be easier for you to integrate into places like mine.
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[Given the wry grin, he doesn't believe that for a moment. But it's nice, to consider a future like that, he thinks. He squeezes Yamato's hand again.]
Thanks, Yama. I don't have the words for how much all'a this means to me... but you already know that, yeah? Thanks for all you're doin' for me.
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You don't have to thank me for that. Just doing what I can to return the favor.
[ Because Malice makes him happier than he thinks he can ever express. ]
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[Hmm. He definitely needs to do more for Yamato, though...
...also ignore how pink he is, that's just your imagination!!]
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Sure. We can call it even, then.
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Good, 'cause I wouldn't want ya to think you owe me anythin'.
[...but he'll nuzzle into Yamato again!! Affection!!]
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Alright, alright. Fair enough.