( Yeah and then you insulate it with magic. What's so hard about this Ahito :/
While Mika considers the idea experimental, it's not any more insane than the healing that already takes place, in his opinion - something that defies reason, even as a vampire.
( Wow. Squares his shoulders a little defensively. nvm he's Not helping you actually--
... )
I still don't know what to think of humans.
( He says this like he can't have an opinion of Ahito without it - and, in a way, they're hard to detangle. Every thought ends up coming with a caveat; a nagging, "what if...?" that he just can't escape.
... )
... Before I came here, I was betrayed by another human I tentatively trusted. ( Again. Thanks, Guren. ) And I ended up injured enough because of it I almost drained the person I was trying to protect in the first place.
( Yuu was cool about it, but it wasted precious time - time they didn't have. It made Yuu weaker - in a situation where they were already overpowered. It forced Yuu to make stupid choices that wasted more time. It forced Mika into a corner. It made Mika realize how if he'd just convinced Yuu out of trusting Guren, none of that would've happened, and it was his fault, again, that Yuu was in danger, and Mika was so selfish as to die protecting Yuu instead of facing the consequences for his constant failings, the way he deserved— )
I still don't know if I'm making the wrong decision again.
( Maybe Ahito will snap and kill Ginger or something??? Or maybe Mika will snap and kill him. Or maybe both of these things will happen at once. And it would have surely all been avoidable if he'd just thought a little more carefully, examined the risks more closely, weighed so carefully every possible outcome and just chosen the right one. He just doesn't know how. All the paths look the same. )
[He does pause to listen, and he takes it seriously - but then, he always does.]
...You asked me about trust before. For what it's worth - I trust you not to intentionally kill me, but- [said immediately to cut off any possible protest-] obviously you can still kill me easily, even if you don't intend to. I'm never not going to realize that.
There's some people I'd trust to have my back here if it came to a fight, maybe. But it's not like I'm going to trust them with all my secrets, either. ...There's too much I don't know about the people here.
( Ugh. (He was definitely going to protest at that one point.) But he listens. )
... I don't think it's normal to entrust everything about yourself to all the people you know.
( So, like, that's fine. Sometimes you just need one single person you can die for, is all. Anyway, )
... But trusting me not to kill you on the purpose is already more trust than I'd expect.
( Or, rather, than a creature like him deserves - is the implication. )
I don't need people's secrets. I just need to know they're not dangerous. That's all.
( And that's really the preoccupying thought - and why it baffles him that anyone would extend him trust in regards to his intentionality - when he places such weight on peace of mind. Secrets can... come as they come; he's not so attached to such concepts anymore. )
But, fine, he'll give it thought, because arguing with Ahito about it clearly isn't getting anywhere (for some reason). He stands, though, since Ahito wants to git. )
... If there was anything else you noticed or that it said. It told me it was bound by a promise, as a wizard, so it couldn't move on. Stuff like that.
( About what he expected, but it's good to confirm.
Ultimately... it might not matter so long as this remains a one-off instance. But they don't really know if this is a one-off instance, is it? Maybe the other people in Central were also...?
Concerning, if so. )
... Maybe the manor should try a exorcism of everyone from Central just in case. The guy with glasses might not have been the only one with a rider.
( Just the only one whose rider manifested - for now. He hesitates to just ask Tatara to organize this, though; Tatara seems the type to say he'll look into it, but not take decisive action immediately. He still doesn't think there's been a PSA about promises, either. So it's... kind of up to them.
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( (patrick voice) just take the blood... and move it somewhere else )
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You know what? No. I'm stopping this conversation here. No blood transfusions, period.
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While Mika considers the idea experimental, it's not any more insane than the healing that already takes place, in his opinion - something that defies reason, even as a vampire.
He sighs. )
... Then eat another one.
( ur death rocks :/ )
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[Yum. Magic rock...]
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Don't act like it's such a burden.
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But on the other hand...
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Thanks. Seriously.
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... I thought you'd be annoyed again.
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... )
I still don't know what to think of humans.
( He says this like he can't have an opinion of Ahito without it - and, in a way, they're hard to detangle. Every thought ends up coming with a caveat; a nagging, "what if...?" that he just can't escape.
... )
... Before I came here, I was betrayed by another human I tentatively trusted. ( Again. Thanks, Guren. ) And I ended up injured enough because of it I almost drained the person I was trying to protect in the first place.
( Yuu was cool about it, but it wasted precious time - time they didn't have. It made Yuu weaker - in a situation where they were already overpowered. It forced Yuu to make stupid choices that wasted more time. It forced Mika into a corner. It made Mika realize how if he'd just convinced Yuu out of trusting Guren, none of that would've happened, and it was his fault, again, that Yuu was in danger, and Mika was so selfish as to die protecting Yuu instead of facing the consequences for his constant failings, the way he deserved— )
I still don't know if I'm making the wrong decision again.
( Maybe Ahito will snap and kill Ginger or something??? Or maybe Mika will snap and kill him. Or maybe both of these things will happen at once. And it would have surely all been avoidable if he'd just thought a little more carefully, examined the risks more closely, weighed so carefully every possible outcome and just chosen the right one. He just doesn't know how. All the paths look the same. )
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...You asked me about trust before. For what it's worth - I trust you not to intentionally kill me, but- [said immediately to cut off any possible protest-] obviously you can still kill me easily, even if you don't intend to. I'm never not going to realize that.
There's some people I'd trust to have my back here if it came to a fight, maybe. But it's not like I'm going to trust them with all my secrets, either. ...There's too much I don't know about the people here.
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... I don't think it's normal to entrust everything about yourself to all the people you know.
( So, like, that's fine. Sometimes you just need one single person you can die for, is all. Anyway, )
... But trusting me not to kill you on the purpose is already more trust than I'd expect.
( Or, rather, than a creature like him deserves - is the implication. )
I don't need people's secrets. I just need to know they're not dangerous. That's all.
( And that's really the preoccupying thought - and why it baffles him that anyone would extend him trust in regards to his intentionality - when he places such weight on peace of mind. Secrets can... come as they come; he's not so attached to such concepts anymore. )
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[You can only nonlethally hold a guy by a neck so many times, dude.]
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... I'm knocking you off your broom next time.
( ... Then he'd catch him :/ )
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[Much intimidation wow. He gives another yawn.]
-Was there other stuff you wanted to ask about? I should probably get out of bed at some point.
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But, fine, he'll give it thought, because arguing with Ahito about it clearly isn't getting anywhere (for some reason). He stands, though, since Ahito wants to git. )
... If there was anything else you noticed or that it said. It told me it was bound by a promise, as a wizard, so it couldn't move on. Stuff like that.
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Ultimately... it might not matter so long as this remains a one-off instance. But they don't really know if this is a one-off instance, is it? Maybe the other people in Central were also...?
Concerning, if so. )
... Maybe the manor should try a exorcism of everyone from Central just in case. The guy with glasses might not have been the only one with a rider.
( Just the only one whose rider manifested - for now. He hesitates to just ask Tatara to organize this, though; Tatara seems the type to say he'll look into it, but not take decisive action immediately. He still doesn't think there's been a PSA about promises, either. So it's... kind of up to them.
He feels stressed out already. )
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No idea on the others, though.
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If whatever they did to get the ghost out of that guy doesn't cause any problems for the host, I don't see why any of them would object, in any case.
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We can still see if there's anything to exorcise. Just saying what I saw.
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... What exactly is his curse?
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He mentioned some other things, too. That after he touched the cursed object, it felt like something in him broke.
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... That doesn't sound safe to me in any sense of the word. Like, at all.
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( No winning against paranoid people. )
... I'll go figure out something about all that. You just stay in bed.
( nvm what you said about getting up. none of that anymore. )
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