Floor 1 Room 4

[dyingtohealyou]

Ahito

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[revengier]

If I decide that's where we go... then yes. He'll help me attain my goals.

[ Of which Kurapika has a whole mess of feelings about, since he thinks Akira has no business helping him with something so gruesome. ]

[dyingtohealyou]

...

You'd really bring him along into that...?

[revengier]

I don't want to. Not if I can help it.

[ He sighs. ]

As long as we're together, I refuse to allow him to kill. I'm well aware that that means I'll have to make a difficult decision at some point.

[ In other words, whether or not he'll even go back home. ]

[dyingtohealyou]

"At some point"...

Isn't that just going to be "when we leave?"

[revengier]

I would hope to make the decision before then. I'm not leaving it up to a spur of the moment feeling.

[dyingtohealyou]

Are you leaning towards one over the other?

[revengier]

[ He breathes out, long and slow. ]

...No.

[ Which is what makes this so difficult for him. ]

I've given up too much to easily let everything go. [ ... ] But I can't return as if nothing has changed either.

[dyingtohealyou]

It does sound like a lot's changed for you since you got here.

[revengier]

Everything I expected to happen if I reconnected with my friends back home ended up happening here.

[ He's a little bit mad about it, mostly because he hates being right about this particular thing. ]

[dyingtohealyou]

Oh? And that would be?

[revengier]

My resolve weakening.

[ He shakes his head. ]

My friends have always reminded me that there was more to life—that I could enjoy myself as I traveled, that having fun and caring about others was possible.

[ Sometimes, rage blinds Kurapika to those feelings, so being confronted with thoughts like that is a true wakeup call for him. ]

That's what happened here.

[dyingtohealyou]

...Do you think it's a bad thing?

[revengier]

When it comes to achieving my goals? Yes.

[dyingtohealyou]

And when it comes to your life in general?

[revengier]

[ That's a much harder question to answer and he sighs, before eventually shrugging. ]

I haven't decided on that part yet.

[dyingtohealyou]

Might be a good place to start with for all your decisions.

[revengier]

You say that like it's an easy place to even begin.

[dyingtohealyou]

I never said it would be easy.

Just that it's a good place to start.

[revengier]

[ He rolls his eyes. ]

Thanks. Real helpful of you, Ahito.

[ It actually is, but still!! ]

I'll consider what it means... and if I'd rather let my feelings about all of this go for the sake of others.

[dyingtohealyou]

It's not like I have any plans now that our mission's done, so I'll even help you out more if you need it.

[Look at him, being so kind and gracious.]

[revengier]

Actually help me out or piss me off until I come to a decision on my own?

[ He's kidding. Ahito's always a help. Somehow. ]

[dyingtohealyou]

Can't it be both?

[It's your own fault for liking obnoxious people, Kurapika.]

[revengier]

[ That just makes him laugh. ]

Why not? It isn't as if I mind it that much anyway.

[dyingtohealyou]

So I should be even more annoying next time? I'll see what I can do.

[He's also joking. ...Probably.]

[revengier]

Should I look forward to it?

[ He smiles, moving to get up. ]