[ Ginger goes a little red, cheeks pulling into a smile that’s half endeared, half wistful. He really doesn’t deserve even half of what Day feels for him. ]
Why else would we argue?
[ If it wasn’t out of care for each other, then what could it be? Every word from Day in that argument might as well have been love, love, love. ]
[ Oh. He didn't realize that some part of him had been holding its breath until he saw Ginger's smile and it relaxed. It's like he's 17 again, when he had his first argument with the boy he liked.
...It feels almost nostalgic, even if he also feels it's rather juvenile of himself. ]
I know, but... I just wanted to be clear. [ He folds his fingers over Ginger's hand. ] Sorry I...got a little heated earlier. [ And had said something that, in hindsight, was perhaps unfair of him. ] And for bein' a little boneheaded about this.
[ He's embarrassed to say that he genuinely had not really considered how Ginger might have reacted to the whole risk assessment. Day just saw the enormity of what Mika meant to Ginger, and thus other priorities were logically and unemotionally arranged in accordance. Day figured even if he got in danger, the odds were good enough for him. ]
[ He understands though. It’s easy to get swept away by strong emotions when it comes to the person you like. Sometimes navigating that feels like walking that of a frozen path, forgetting that underneath lies a lake and once you fall in, that’s it. You’re gone with shock of it.
Day can say he made all his decisions rationally, but Ginger would think that’s impossible. Thinks that maybe he already has one foot in the lake. ]
I get it. [ Him attacking Khun was definitely more than just a case of being a little heated. ] I think… it’s good that you try to be clear. That’s… um… braver than me.
[ With Rum, he was never brave enough to be honest about his feelings. And to be honest with himself, he doesn’t know if he remains incapable of it - if he’s changed enough in any way when it comes to Rum and love. ]
[ If Day was being completely honest with himself, maybe he'd be able to tell there was, perhaps, a bit of keeping his expectations low involved. A reflexive action taken without too much thought, because he's already done it so many times by now in his life. In a way, that's putting a foot in the lake.
He blinks slowly at the comment because frankly, it hasn't crossed his mind that it could be considered "brave" at all. One of his hands starts to reach up for Ginger's cheek, but stops short as if he isn't sure if it's alright for him to do so. He just can't stand to see Ginger so... sombre. ]
Thanks. But you seemed plenty brave to me just now. [ Saying some of the things he did. ] And...I guess when you do lotta people-work, you have to. [ Most of the time, his job is about bringing happiness into people's lives and safeguarding their joy, so it follows that he has to think about people. How can I push them towards a destined happiness? And even now, when this isn't even his jurisdiction, he still thinks along those lines, because how else is he supposed to tackle the problems presented to him? ]
...I was thinkin' of doin' it myself, but on second thought, you ought to give the charm to Mika instead. [ Thinking back to his conversation with Yamato and...honestly, considering what they're about to do for it, this is more fair and equitable. He knows Ginger won't decline. ]
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[ Ginger goes a little red, cheeks pulling into a smile that’s half endeared, half wistful. He really doesn’t deserve even half of what Day feels for him. ]
Why else would we argue?
[ If it wasn’t out of care for each other, then what could it be? Every word from Day in that argument might as well have been love, love, love. ]
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...It feels almost nostalgic, even if he also feels it's rather juvenile of himself. ]
I know, but... I just wanted to be clear. [ He folds his fingers over Ginger's hand. ] Sorry I...got a little heated earlier. [ And had said something that, in hindsight, was perhaps unfair of him. ] And for bein' a little boneheaded about this.
[ He's embarrassed to say that he genuinely had not really considered how Ginger might have reacted to the whole risk assessment. Day just saw the enormity of what Mika meant to Ginger, and thus other priorities were logically and unemotionally arranged in accordance. Day figured even if he got in danger, the odds were good enough for him. ]
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[ He understands though. It’s easy to get swept away by strong emotions when it comes to the person you like. Sometimes navigating that feels like walking that of a frozen path, forgetting that underneath lies a lake and once you fall in, that’s it. You’re gone with shock of it.
Day can say he made all his decisions rationally, but Ginger would think that’s impossible. Thinks that maybe he already has one foot in the lake. ]
I get it. [ Him attacking Khun was definitely more than just a case of being a little heated. ] I think… it’s good that you try to be clear. That’s… um… braver than me.
[ With Rum, he was never brave enough to be honest about his feelings. And to be honest with himself, he doesn’t know if he remains incapable of it - if he’s changed enough in any way when it comes to Rum and love. ]
You think about others a lot, don’t you, Day?
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He blinks slowly at the comment because frankly, it hasn't crossed his mind that it could be considered "brave" at all. One of his hands starts to reach up for Ginger's cheek, but stops short as if he isn't sure if it's alright for him to do so. He just can't stand to see Ginger so... sombre. ]
Thanks. But you seemed plenty brave to me just now. [ Saying some of the things he did. ] And...I guess when you do lotta people-work, you have to. [ Most of the time, his job is about bringing happiness into people's lives and safeguarding their joy, so it follows that he has to think about people. How can I push them towards a destined happiness? And even now, when this isn't even his jurisdiction, he still thinks along those lines, because how else is he supposed to tackle the problems presented to him? ]
...I was thinkin' of doin' it myself, but on second thought, you ought to give the charm to Mika instead. [ Thinking back to his conversation with Yamato and...honestly, considering what they're about to do for it, this is more fair and equitable. He knows Ginger won't decline. ]