Then you understand the power of bonds perfectly. The difference between us is what "fuel" we use to supply our powers. I don't know how yours works, but I assume your powers don't come out of thin air either.
Really? That's pretty interesting. Sounds like something out of a shounen anime.
[Akira taps his chin in silent thought. Hm. It won't really harm or benefit Kurapika to know the specifics of Akira's powers, so fine. He'll tell him.]
I can summon something called a Persona. It's a part of myself that fights on my behalf. I can summon multiple, actually, all with their own strengths and weaknesses. It's the bonds I've forged that make my Personas powerful.
Anyway, that's not important and probably world specific to Akira, so Kurapika doesn't dwell on it, immediately shifting his attention to his abilities. ]
Does this mean you have many different aspects of yourself?
[ It's honestly kind of hard to conceptualize, but maybe he can think of it as a Conjuration type of Nen ability... ]
[See, this is why he didn't want to say shit to Kurapika. He's just embarrassed now. You show your whole ass to a guy and he just doesn't get it.............]
I'd like to think I'm a pretty well-rounded guy. I like doing new things, meeting interesting people... keeping my mind open to different perspectives.
[God. He feels like he's being interviewed for a job. Akira groans. The tips of his ears are a little red too.]
Anyway, can we talk about something else? It's not like it matters anymore. I can't use my powers here.
[ This is what you get for being into a guy with negative rizz, Akira.
Whether Kurapika feels a certain way about Akira's embarrassment or not, it's hard to tell, because his expression remains neutral. ]
Doesn't it matter? They rely on your bonds. Clearly they're an important part of your life. Just because you can't use them doesn't mean that they haven't had a hand in shaping who you've become.
[ Honing and developing an ability is a big investment. It's significant no matter what. ]
[...Kurapika really is a nice guy, isn't he? A shame he doesn't apply these concepts to himself, but that's neither here nor there. Akira takes another bite of tamagoyaki before replying.]
No one said they've stopped being important to me. All my friends are dear to me.
[His lips curve naturally into a smile. He looks at Kurapika sidelong.]
And I think we're gonna be good friends. You're good people.
[ Something about that... it bothers him, and he can't place why. Friendship is a good thing, despite all of his hang ups about it, but he's since accepted the fact that there's no avoiding that here. Can't exactly avoid someone when they can march right up to you instead of calling.
So, why is he bothered? He can't pick it out and isolate it and examine why he feels this way or why he's suddenly thinking about the warmth that radiated off of Akira when they shared a bed. It's impossible.
He picks up an apple slice. ]
We're already friends.
[ Mm... that isn't quite what is bothering him, as the feeling doesn't go away after he says it.
[Eh? Nani the fuck? Akira definitely notices, but he doesn't say shit about it. Kurapika is a pretty moody guy, so the reason for the sudden cold shoulder could be anything, really.]
When you say it like that, you make me even more curious.
[...Okay, the cold shoulder's kind of annoying, actually. Akira taps him on the shoulder, tap tap tap.]
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[Grumbled around a mouthful of delicious bento.]
I feel like you'd just laugh at me if I did. I have feelings, you know.
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[ Akira, please. This is the first time he's been able to actually relax since the mission. Let him have this. ]
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Everybody represents different Major Arcana. Strengthening my bond with people who bear those Arcana makes my own skills more powerful. Happy?
[Don't make him talk about Igor and his prison-themed Velvet Room, please!]
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[ He's doing something worse than laughing—he's judging. ]
How do you even know when you strengthen a bond anyway?
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[This guy...!! He's trying to explain!]
Don't you have any friends? I'm not trying to be rude, just asking. You should know what it feels like when you've forged a strong bond with someone.
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[ Something about that question seems to catch him off guard, enough so that he doesn't say anything for a long, long moment.
And when he finally does, his voice is much softer: ]
Of course I do, Akira. Of course I have friends.
[ They mean the world to him, after all, and that's why he can't be around them anymore. ]
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Then you understand the power of bonds perfectly. The difference between us is what "fuel" we use to supply our powers. I don't know how yours works, but I assume your powers don't come out of thin air either.
[what is nen]
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Where I'm from, your power comes from your life energy—your Nen. It relies on your ability to adapt to different situations and opponents.
[ Planning and adaptability really are the most important things once everything else has been shoved to the side, he thinks. ]
Conditions and rules placed on your abilities to limit them will also greatly increase their strength.
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[Akira taps his chin in silent thought. Hm. It won't really harm or benefit Kurapika to know the specifics of Akira's powers, so fine. He'll tell him.]
I can summon something called a Persona. It's a part of myself that fights on my behalf. I can summon multiple, actually, all with their own strengths and weaknesses. It's the bonds I've forged that make my Personas powerful.
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Anyway, that's not important and probably world specific to Akira, so Kurapika doesn't dwell on it, immediately shifting his attention to his abilities. ]
Does this mean you have many different aspects of yourself?
[ It's honestly kind of hard to conceptualize, but maybe he can think of it as a Conjuration type of Nen ability... ]
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I'd like to think I'm a pretty well-rounded guy. I like doing new things, meeting interesting people... keeping my mind open to different perspectives.
[God. He feels like he's being interviewed for a job. Akira groans. The tips of his ears are a little red too.]
Anyway, can we talk about something else? It's not like it matters anymore. I can't use my powers here.
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Whether Kurapika feels a certain way about Akira's embarrassment or not, it's hard to tell, because his expression remains neutral. ]
Doesn't it matter? They rely on your bonds. Clearly they're an important part of your life. Just because you can't use them doesn't mean that they haven't had a hand in shaping who you've become.
[ Honing and developing an ability is a big investment. It's significant no matter what. ]
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No one said they've stopped being important to me. All my friends are dear to me.
[His lips curve naturally into a smile. He looks at Kurapika sidelong.]
And I think we're gonna be good friends. You're good people.
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So, why is he bothered? He can't pick it out and isolate it and examine why he feels this way or why he's suddenly thinking about the warmth that radiated off of Akira when they shared a bed. It's impossible.
He picks up an apple slice. ]
We're already friends.
[ Mm... that isn't quite what is bothering him, as the feeling doesn't go away after he says it.
But it's true, so that's what counts. ]
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[Nice and platonic-like. Akira's grin widens, perfectly unaware of Kurapika's inner turmoil.]
You could start by telling me your deepest darkest secrets.
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It's a subtle shift, but Kurapika turns a little bit so that he isn't facing Akira nearly as much as he was before. ]
Are those really things you want to know, Akira? I am a mafia boss.
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When you say it like that, you make me even more curious.
[...Okay, the cold shoulder's kind of annoying, actually. Akira taps him on the shoulder, tap tap tap.]
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I don't really have secrets.
[ If he's asked the right question or in need of information, Kurapika will reveal whatever he needs to. So... ]
Ask me a question and I'll answer, but if you aren't specific you need to be happy with whatever you get.
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What's your type?
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Why did he walk right into this? That's absolutely what he did, isn't it? ]
I don't think about that sort of thing.
[ And yet he kissed Akira back. Funny, isn't it? ]
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[Does Kurapika even... you know. Jork his peanits?]
I could hazard a guess, but you'd probably ditch me. I'll keep my thoughts to myself.
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You clearly want to say it, so go ahead.
[ Put him out of his misery. ]
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Let's see... First things first: I bet you prefer dudes over women.
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What evidence do you even have to base that off of?
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[Teeheehee!]
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cw eye horror just a blanket warning
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