He's never been told that before. Honestly, it renders him speechless. He smiles, and it's more sad than bitter, but he looks up at Ginger with a soft expression. ]
You're too kind, Ginger. Thank you, though. That's more grace than I deserve.
You can have one of mine. You know, when I was growing up, I thought babies came from flowers. That I was born out of the hope my parents held together - for their love to blossom or something silly like that.
[ And then his dad ruined everything pure about that idea. ]
So with this flower, I hope you can change in a way that makes you happy.
That's quite a sweet sentiment. Ginger is kind, isn't he?
Yamato takes the lily. He holds it delicately and looks at it with a fond, longing smile. The kindness he's been extended is not deserved, in his opinion, but he'll receive it nevertheless. It feels nice. ]
I...do my best to keep smiling, I guess. I don't want the fans to see me upset or sad. That's not what idols are here for.
[ As for that second part- ]
Just "Yamato"... I don't know about that. It's not really a side I'm proud of, or a side people really get to see. I've felt more like myself here than I have in a long time.
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[ A mirrored reaction, but one of understanding all the same. ]
You, too?
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[ Ginger is kind of - traumatized by his childhood??? ]
Well, it’s stupid and complicated. Mostly embarrassing. And you? If, um, you want to talk about it?
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...My father's a liar.
[ Just like him. He lets out a short, bitter laugh. ]
That's the gist of it.
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[ Sympathy for bitterness in that laugh. He wants to give Yamato a flower right now to - help somehow. ]
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[ That's how he sees it, anyway.
He closes his eyes. ]
I had to find out certain things on my own. I was a kid, when I did. It changed who I was...and who I am now. I'm not proud of it.
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[ He wonders why a liar would send his son flowers…? Apologies offered too late, maybe. ]
But… Yamato, you were a kid, right? You probably coped with it the only way you knew how.
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[ That's...
He's never been told that before. Honestly, it renders him speechless. He smiles, and it's more sad than bitter, but he looks up at Ginger with a soft expression. ]
You're too kind, Ginger. Thank you, though. That's more grace than I deserve.
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I just don't think a child should have to blame themselves for the results of an adult’s mistake. You don’t really have the power of choice then.
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[ ... ]
Anyway, all of this to say...I could probably grow to like flowers more than I do now.
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You can have one of mine. You know, when I was growing up, I thought babies came from flowers. That I was born out of the hope my parents held together - for their love to blossom or something silly like that.
[ And then his dad ruined everything pure about that idea. ]
So with this flower, I hope you can change in a way that makes you happy.
[ Here, have a lily. ]
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That's quite a sweet sentiment. Ginger is kind, isn't he?
Yamato takes the lily. He holds it delicately and looks at it with a fond, longing smile. The kindness he's been extended is not deserved, in his opinion, but he'll receive it nevertheless. It feels nice. ]
Thanks. It certainly motivates me to try.
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[ That’s a nice smile. A little sad, but Ginger gets it. ]
I don’t know if we’re wrong, but they’re probably right.
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[ It's not a bad thing. It's a quality he envies, actually. ]
Do you still hold onto that, even when you've been wronged?
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[ What a contradiction. ]
I don’t really care about what other people think though.
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[ Same hat once again, Ginger, except that last part. ]
I kind of have to care about my image, though. It's my job to appeal to the public. It's what idols do...so I need to be pretty careful, back at home.
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[ As for that second part- ]
Just "Yamato"... I don't know about that. It's not really a side I'm proud of, or a side people really get to see. I've felt more like myself here than I have in a long time.
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[ He does wonder though if the mask isn't real, then... isn't it just hurting everyone - fans and idol both - to believe in a hollow dream? ]
But that doesn't mean we can't cheer you on. So, I believe in you, Yamato.
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He holds onto the flower a little tighter. ]
Thank you. I appreciate that a lot, Ginger.
[ He gently claps his hand on Ginger's shoulder. ]
Come on. Let's keep going to the courtyard.