How else am I supposed to interpret the things you say? You complain at me for coming into your room at night but not for choking you? You don't trust people or like them, you just "take an interest"?
( Ahito who also existed on a level of wealth between extreme poverty and absolute luxury... )
He's honestly way too tired to deal with Mika's emotional troubles. A part of him did kind of hope implying Mika gave a shit about him would get the emotionally constipated vampire to flee on the spot rather than face the mortification of being Seen, even if the more caring side of him, distant in his weariness, flinched at the thought of losing any progress he had (though, really - had he progressed?)
But he's still here. Infuriatingly. But... a bit sweetly, too. If you squint.]
...I took an interest in you because you're interesting. Because that's what people do when they're trying to see who they should bother getting to know - figure out if you'll even get along.
You understand the worst of humanity. And- just a little, I get what it's like to have your body changed against your will.
We had common ground. That's why I was interested.
But right now, I'm too tired to play around. [Too tired for this tsundere tug-of-war.]
If you're worried or concerned - then fine. You can stay.
But if you're just going to insist you aren't - then leave so I can sleep.
( He does want to refuse - flatly and outright, and his lips purse at the confrontation. But Ahito is frank with him in a way he doesn't expect, and that catches him off guard.
... )
... The last person I knew who "took interest" in people was a freak.
( Not really an excuse, and he doesn't say it as one. His socialization's just been so completely damaged he can't really gauge if what Ahito says makes sense or not, or is normal or not, but it's clearly normal for Ahito, and in the end that's all that really matters in this brief moment.
He still isn't sure how he feels, even as Ahito confronts him to make a choice in choosing to stay or go. It's complicated, and maybe a little too complicated for him to parse - seeing the forest for the trees, so close to his heart.
He had brushed it off before, and he still doesn't understand it himself - but some part of him does fear betrayal. Hadn't he been willing so tentatively willing to trust Yuu's trust in Guren, and time and time again, Guren betrayed it - put Yuu in danger? Trust wrongly again, and someone else he knows might find their neck on the guillotine for his mistake, again, and again, and again.
And then some part of him fears himself, too. That he would be the first and finest traitor to someone's ease around him - that he would, as the ghost had taunted, take their neck in his teeth the moment they turn their back, like animal's instinct.
He fears these things with all the people he knows, but with humans most of all. Humans are more deceitful and fragile than he could ever hope to comprehend, cutting his palms as if a broken pane of glass.
...
Without coming to a verbal conclusion within his mind or without, he finally sits on the sill, as if to suggest he'll stay. However Ahito will interpret that. (He's still a little bit cowardly.) )
... Go to sleep.
( He reaches under his cloak and extracts a small pouch and chucks it carefully - it lands softly beside Ahito's head where he's lying. )
Have that when you wake up.
( The sound of the bag and the faint pulse of its energy likely gives its contents away even before Ahito has to check: it's a bag of mana stones; his payment from various jobs. He hadn't abstained from eating them for any ethical reason - he just hadn't gotten around to it yet, and this seemed a better use for them. That's all. )
[He will in fact drift into unconsciousness while there's a vampire in the room, expression a rare look of peacefulness. Kindly save your complaints about his lack of caution for when he wakes again.
But if his sleep is uninterrupted, he will indeed wake by morning. Did Mika get bored and wander off?]
( Non, and hopefully Ginger doesn't mind his absence this morning. When Ahito gets to rousing, he'll see the window is locked and closed again, and there's no Mika to be found there.
Instead, he's taken to sitting on his couch, or whatever other chair there is, so long as it gave him a decent view of the bed. He probably got bored enough to pick off a book or two from the bookshelf if there are any on it, but he's not an avid reader - more an idle one - so by the time Ahito wakes up, Mika doesn't have one in hand; he's just gazing in his direction without greeting, waiting for him to be properly awake. )
[There's some books from the library and, interestingly, notebooks with a lot of handwritten notes on magic and practiced sketches of magic circles, half-baked spell concepts and notes. Someone's been working on his magic.
When he wakes and finds Mika really did stay - well, maybe if he hides his grin behind a yawn, he'll get a pass.]
Really wanted to know that bad, huh?
[He'll replace his shades, same as he does every morning, dragging himself upright to sit cross-legged on his bed.]
Alright, you earned it. What did you want to know?
( Narrows his eyes slightly. Was that a grin, or just part of the yawn............... )
... How it happened. ( Do you not have perfect memory of what happened [redacted] hours ago before you went to sleep after being woken up in the middle of the night :/ ) Did he just outpace you? Or did you let your guard down?
By the time he'd gotten to me, yeah. I'd visited Kurapika before, so I knew some pretty bad stuff happened to them, but I didn't expect to get stalked and attacked by a ghost.
And - Bruno got everything he could. I healed up my neck and I've been working on healing the bloodloss.
[Speaking of spending magic - taking a magestone, thanks.]
It sounds like Ahito was just unlucky, then. However, speaking to the root: )
... If people knew something was wrong, they should've investigated more closely.
( To most this would just be a case of hindsight being 20/20, but to Mika - cautious as he can be - it was wholly preventable. Slightest sign of oddity? Lock him up and investigate.
Ironic as that may sound for someone once livestock, once an unknowing experiment. )
I was expecting more "cursed and in pain" than "trying to kill us all."
[Fuckin ghosts.]
And - probably, yeah. My healing's not so great for stuff deeper than the wounds themselves, but I've been improving.
[He sees no problem in answering this because he is a human and cannot replace blood by drinking it. That would be silly and stupid. It does mean, however, that he's a touch paler than usual, but not alarmingly so.]
( Yeah and then you insulate it with magic. What's so hard about this Ahito :/
While Mika considers the idea experimental, it's not any more insane than the healing that already takes place, in his opinion - something that defies reason, even as a vampire.
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( Ahito who also existed on a level of wealth between extreme poverty and absolute luxury... )
You're weird. I'm just trying to figure you out.
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He's honestly way too tired to deal with Mika's emotional troubles. A part of him did kind of hope implying Mika gave a shit about him would get the emotionally constipated vampire to flee on the spot rather than face the mortification of being Seen, even if the more caring side of him, distant in his weariness, flinched at the thought of losing any progress he had (though, really - had he progressed?)
But he's still here. Infuriatingly. But... a bit sweetly, too. If you squint.]
...I took an interest in you because you're interesting. Because that's what people do when they're trying to see who they should bother getting to know - figure out if you'll even get along.
You understand the worst of humanity. And- just a little, I get what it's like to have your body changed against your will.
We had common ground. That's why I was interested.
But right now, I'm too tired to play around. [Too tired for this tsundere tug-of-war.]
If you're worried or concerned - then fine. You can stay.
But if you're just going to insist you aren't - then leave so I can sleep.
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... )
... The last person I knew who "took interest" in people was a freak.
( Not really an excuse, and he doesn't say it as one. His socialization's just been so completely damaged he can't really gauge if what Ahito says makes sense or not, or is normal or not, but it's clearly normal for Ahito, and in the end that's all that really matters in this brief moment.
He still isn't sure how he feels, even as Ahito confronts him to make a choice in choosing to stay or go. It's complicated, and maybe a little too complicated for him to parse - seeing the forest for the trees, so close to his heart.
He had brushed it off before, and he still doesn't understand it himself - but some part of him does fear betrayal. Hadn't he been willing so tentatively willing to trust Yuu's trust in Guren, and time and time again, Guren betrayed it - put Yuu in danger? Trust wrongly again, and someone else he knows might find their neck on the guillotine for his mistake, again, and again, and again.
And then some part of him fears himself, too. That he would be the first and finest traitor to someone's ease around him - that he would, as the ghost had taunted, take their neck in his teeth the moment they turn their back, like animal's instinct.
He fears these things with all the people he knows, but with humans most of all. Humans are more deceitful and fragile than he could ever hope to comprehend, cutting his palms as if a broken pane of glass.
...
Without coming to a verbal conclusion within his mind or without, he finally sits on the sill, as if to suggest he'll stay. However Ahito will interpret that. (He's still a little bit cowardly.) )
... Go to sleep.
( He reaches under his cloak and extracts a small pouch and chucks it carefully - it lands softly beside Ahito's head where he's lying. )
Have that when you wake up.
( The sound of the bag and the faint pulse of its energy likely gives its contents away even before Ahito has to check: it's a bag of mana stones; his payment from various jobs. He hadn't abstained from eating them for any ethical reason - he just hadn't gotten around to it yet, and this seemed a better use for them. That's all. )
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He laughs a little, light. Takes them - sets them on the nightstand for now, so they don't block his view.]
...If you stick around, or come back when I'm awake again- we can talk then.
[Because he really, really is so tired.]
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( He doesn't get up though??? Is Mika just gonna stay there... Ahito can just wait and find out, clearly. )
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But if his sleep is uninterrupted, he will indeed wake by morning. Did Mika get bored and wander off?]
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Instead, he's taken to sitting on his couch, or whatever other chair there is, so long as it gave him a decent view of the bed. He probably got bored enough to pick off a book or two from the bookshelf if there are any on it, but he's not an avid reader - more an idle one - so by the time Ahito wakes up, Mika doesn't have one in hand; he's just gazing in his direction without greeting, waiting for him to be properly awake. )
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When he wakes and finds Mika really did stay - well, maybe if he hides his grin behind a yawn, he'll get a pass.]
Really wanted to know that bad, huh?
[He'll replace his shades, same as he does every morning, dragging himself upright to sit cross-legged on his bed.]
Alright, you earned it. What did you want to know?
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( Narrows his eyes slightly. Was that a grin, or just part of the yawn............... )
... How it happened. ( Do you not have perfect memory of what happened [redacted] hours ago before you went to sleep after being woken up in the middle of the night :/ ) Did he just outpace you? Or did you let your guard down?
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( blah blah blah kill all wizards blah tirades
He studies Ahito, though, as he talks. )
... Did they actually heal you properly?
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And - Bruno got everything he could. I healed up my neck and I've been working on healing the bloodloss.
[Speaking of spending magic - taking a magestone, thanks.]
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It sounds like Ahito was just unlucky, then. However, speaking to the root: )
... If people knew something was wrong, they should've investigated more closely.
( To most this would just be a case of hindsight being 20/20, but to Mika - cautious as he can be - it was wholly preventable. Slightest sign of oddity? Lock him up and investigate.
Ironic as that may sound for someone once livestock, once an unknowing experiment. )
... Do you need more blood?
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[Fuckin ghosts.]
And - probably, yeah. My healing's not so great for stuff deeper than the wounds themselves, but I've been improving.
[He sees no problem in answering this because he is a human and cannot replace blood by drinking it. That would be silly and stupid. It does mean, however, that he's a touch paler than usual, but not alarmingly so.]
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:bigthink: )
... Blood transfusions are difficult normally, but maybe they're easier with magic.
( and as we all know bruno Loves blood so let's ring him back up, )
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( (patrick voice) just take the blood... and move it somewhere else )
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You know what? No. I'm stopping this conversation here. No blood transfusions, period.
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While Mika considers the idea experimental, it's not any more insane than the healing that already takes place, in his opinion - something that defies reason, even as a vampire.
He sighs. )
... Then eat another one.
( ur death rocks :/ )
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[Yum. Magic rock...]
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Don't act like it's such a burden.
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But on the other hand...
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Thanks. Seriously.
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... I thought you'd be annoyed again.
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