[ At that, he leans in and presses a soft kiss to Malice's lips, just one more time to accentuate his feelings. How much he's been wanting to do this, even if it hasn't been all that long. He's starting to get more comfortable with doing that, too. It's nice. ]
If you wanted time to think, I would've waited. However long you would've needed, I would've given you that time. ... That's what love's supposed to be like, isn't it? Patient and kind.
I know you would've. But I don't need time - I already know what my answer is.
[...]
I haven't really... experienced love. I mean, there were a few times where people did care 'bout me, but most of 'em were so long ago that I don't really remember 'em clearly.
[The woman who took him in is the one who stands out. She was so careful and gentle with him, even though he was far stronger and more durable than she was; she was human, after all.]
Patient an' kind, though... Guess I've got some learnin' to do too, huh?
It's...complicated. Idols aren't normally allowed to date, where I'm from. We're supposed to dedicate ourselves to our fans, and getting into relationships can upset a lot of them.
[ He says this pretty neutrally, like he has no strong feelings about it one way or another. He just knows it's something he shouldn't do, and it wasn't something he'd even considered for a while before then, too. ]
But...there won't be another you out there. There's only one Malice...so I didn't want to walk away from this with any regrets. And I sure as hell don't want to walk away from it without you.
[ It'll be hard. It'll be difficult to work around things, but- ]
[It sounds kind of silly to him, but this definitely sounds like a serious concern that Yamato does have to think about. This is something he's never had to deal with, so he has to trust Yamato's thoughts on it.]
Yeah, I know you will. An' I understand, I feel the same way.
[ He laughs while Malice does that and gently swats his hand away...but he ends up catching that hand in his. He brings Malice's hand to his lips and gently kisses the back of it, over his knuckles.
...
He's so surprised at himself that he can't help but feel a little flustered. Oops. ]
[ Why was he somehow under the assumption that Malice had dated before? Probably because he seemed so sure of himself when they kissed earlier, but like??? Wao. ]
Well, yeah? I mean, I had a girlfriend once but uh... not sure that really counts.
[For a variety of reasons, most of which were that they were terrible to one another and also she was a vampire, so she definitely doesn't count(???).]
Point is, it's never been... gentle, patient, or kind like this, y'know?
'Course I do. It's why I knew what my answer'd be.
[All his life he's been looking to be accepted, to be cared for, to be treated well, and he's found that wrapped up into one neat little package. What he wanted wasn't necessarily family, but rather to be loved. And here, right now, he's never felt more loved.]
It feels amazin', like I've finally found my way home.
[ That moves him in a way he doesn't expect. Yamato looks back up at him with a soft smile on his face. ]
It's the same for me.
[ Maybe now, he can finally face Mitsuki, Nagi. Maybe he can go back to IDOLiSH7 and try again. Malice is one of the people who've given him the courage to do so. Malice is the person who understands him and accepts him despite all of his mistakes, and for that, he feels the same way. ]
[That gets a soft (yet still evil-sounding) laugh from him as he shakes his head.]
Pretty sure most people'd argue that one. I just say whatever's on my mind an' whatever sounds right to fit the moment. But thanks, Yama.
[It's nice, to hear that they feel the same way about this, and that they have found someplace to call home even here, in this strange land so far away from their usual problems.]
You wanna keep this to ourselves, or are you fine tellin' the others if it comes up?
[Malice doesn't really care either way; it's none of their business so he can keep his mouth shut, but he certainly wouldn't mind talking about his wonderful boyfriend!!]
[except when you made it their business by yelling in front of the healers?? smh.]
I don't plan on yellin' 'bout it either, but good to know you ain't opposed to talkin' 'bout it if it does come up. Think it'd be kinda hard not to mention it when we already spend so much time together!
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If you wanted time to think, I would've waited. However long you would've needed, I would've given you that time. ... That's what love's supposed to be like, isn't it? Patient and kind.
[ ...Yeah. ]
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[...]
I haven't really... experienced love. I mean, there were a few times where people did care 'bout me, but most of 'em were so long ago that I don't really remember 'em clearly.
[The woman who took him in is the one who stands out. She was so careful and gentle with him, even though he was far stronger and more durable than she was; she was human, after all.]
Patient an' kind, though... Guess I've got some learnin' to do too, huh?
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[ So if Malice is a little more fiery, that's fine. He's not worried. He placed himself in Malice's hands for a reason, after all. ]
Thanks. For not turning me away. I thought I went and messed everything up for a second, but you surprised me.
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...But that'd just be denyin' what we both want, right? An' sometimes you gotta take a risk.
["sometimes" smh]
You gonna be okay with... this?
[Vague handwave to refer to their... relationship? Maybe?]
You said somethin' 'bout it bein' off-limits?
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[ He says this pretty neutrally, like he has no strong feelings about it one way or another. He just knows it's something he shouldn't do, and it wasn't something he'd even considered for a while before then, too. ]
But...there won't be another you out there. There's only one Malice...so I didn't want to walk away from this with any regrets. And I sure as hell don't want to walk away from it without you.
[ It'll be hard. It'll be difficult to work around things, but- ]
I'll figure something out.
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[It sounds kind of silly to him, but this definitely sounds like a serious concern that Yamato does have to think about. This is something he's never had to deal with, so he has to trust Yamato's thoughts on it.]
Yeah, I know you will. An' I understand, I feel the same way.
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[ He's really happy, actually. ]
You're stuck with me, now.
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[And then he reaches up to ruffle Yamato's hair, grinning as he does so.]
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[ He laughs while Malice does that and gently swats his hand away...but he ends up catching that hand in his. He brings Malice's hand to his lips and gently kisses the back of it, over his knuckles.
...
He's so surprised at himself that he can't help but feel a little flustered. Oops. ]
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...You are so sappy.
[...just ignore that he's pretty pink, okay!!!]
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What, are you complaining?
[ Ugh!! He'll look away and lower Malice's hand, then. He's so embarrassed. ]
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[He moves to lace his fingers with Yamato's, expression softening a bit as he holds Yamato's hand.]
It's cute. I ain't used to it. Who knew I even could be flustered, huh?
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Haha. That's an achievement for me, then, isn't it. I'll keep finding ways to surprise you, in that case.
[ Yamato squeezes Malice's hand. ]
This is all new to me, but I'll try not to mess up too much.
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You don't gotta worry 'bout that. It's new to me too, so we'll be figurin' it out as we go.
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It...is?
[ Why was he somehow under the assumption that Malice had dated before? Probably because he seemed so sure of himself when they kissed earlier, but like??? Wao. ]
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Well, yeah? I mean, I had a girlfriend once but uh... not sure that really counts.
[For a variety of reasons, most of which were that they were terrible to one another and also she was a vampire, so she definitely doesn't count(???).]
Point is, it's never been... gentle, patient, or kind like this, y'know?
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[ A girlfriend-not-girlfriend? Interesting.
His expression softens, though, and he looks down at their hands. ]
You like it, right?
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'Course I do. It's why I knew what my answer'd be.
[All his life he's been looking to be accepted, to be cared for, to be treated well, and he's found that wrapped up into one neat little package. What he wanted wasn't necessarily family, but rather to be loved. And here, right now, he's never felt more loved.]
It feels amazin', like I've finally found my way home.
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You really feel that way?
[ That moves him in a way he doesn't expect. Yamato looks back up at him with a soft smile on his face. ]
It's the same for me.
[ Maybe now, he can finally face Mitsuki, Nagi. Maybe he can go back to IDOLiSH7 and try again. Malice is one of the people who've given him the courage to do so. Malice is the person who understands him and accepts him despite all of his mistakes, and for that, he feels the same way. ]
... You really have a way with words.
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Pretty sure most people'd argue that one. I just say whatever's on my mind an' whatever sounds right to fit the moment. But thanks, Yama.
[It's nice, to hear that they feel the same way about this, and that they have found someplace to call home even here, in this strange land so far away from their usual problems.]
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[ Because he likes hearing what Malice has to say. Most of the time. Sometimes, what Malice says really flusters him, but you know.
Hm. That reminds him of something. ]
Guess I should seal the deal officially, then.
[ So there aren't any misunderstandings. He squeezes Malice's hand again as he leans forward to touch their foreheads together. ]
Partners...?
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Partners. Ain't no confusion 'bout that one.
[Though there is one more thing he should ask...]
You wanna keep this to ourselves, or are you fine tellin' the others if it comes up?
[Malice doesn't really care either way; it's none of their business so he can keep his mouth shut, but he certainly wouldn't mind talking about his wonderful boyfriend!!]
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[ Hm, he should've, but. ]
It's not something I need to hide here. I won't go around telling everyone, but if people ask, I don't mind if they know.
[ Especially after they argued in front of the healers. Embarrassing. ]
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[except when you made it their business by yelling in front of the healers?? smh.]
I don't plan on yellin' 'bout it either, but good to know you ain't opposed to talkin' 'bout it if it does come up. Think it'd be kinda hard not to mention it when we already spend so much time together!
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Yeah. Maybe some others have already caught on. I wouldn't know.
[ He pauses, considering something. ]
I've never felt like this about anyone else. Thinking about how deep my feelings go makes me kind of embarrassed...hah.
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yams.......
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