[ He can tell that Malice is having a hard time responding, and that, in Yamato's mind, is grounds to believe he's probably gone and fucked everything up, in typical Yamato fashion. Always burning bridges, always being selfish and never thinking about how his actions might make someone else feel even if it's with their best interests in mind. This is nothing new to him, this will be fine and he and Malice won't speak. That's how it went with Mitsu. He's used to it-
except that's not what happens. Instead, he's being pulled forward, and no, he doesn't resist, even though his eyes widen when he's been kissed.
It's his first time, and he would've expected something different from Malice if he knew this was going to happen, but this? This is good. This feels right, and he feels his heart pound in his chest as he closes his eyes and returns it. It's definitely a little tentative since this man has never had the touch of another human in his life (joke) but he's happy.
Everything telling him this is a bad idea, that he should back away because there's no way that this'll work out for either of them, is silenced. Yamato may know and meet people who woldn't approve if they found out, but he is sure he won't meet another Malice.
For this reason, he allows himself to be unwise and selfish, and his hold on Malice tightens once more. ]
[Yamato's grip tightening in response gets a pleased hum from Malice, and though Yamato's kiss is tentative, his isn't. He may not have much experience with proper relationships, but he's slept around experienced with this and he's eager to kiss his... Yamato.
At least until he has to break to catch his breath, which would be the perfect time to actually talk about this, but instead Malice decides "fuck it" and kisses Yamato again. His hand rises from the vicegrip he has on Yamato's shirt to gently slide up his neck and settle against the side of his face, always gentle in sharp contrast to the clingy behavior from earlier.]
[ The second one also catches him by surprise, because he actually did think they'd talk about things, but this is also Malice and Malice is a guy who seems to really know what he wants. So, he'll accept another kiss and even subconsciously lean into Malice's hand. It feels nice, being treated like he's precious.
He's the first to break away this time, and he doesn't pull away much, but he quietly chuckles and his expression looks rather bashful. ]
[Malice remains close, considering shutting Yamato up by kissing him again because that's so much easier than talking, but instead he decides to humor him.]
...Nah.
[—or not.]
You'll learn faster the more you practice! An' you'll have plenty of time to practice with me.
Yamato's tempted to sigh and complain about how Malice is such a handful, but he gets the feeling that the guy's pretty eager. So he quickly works up the courage to initiate the next one – he leans in for a third kiss, and he feels his fingers curl into the fabric of Malice's shirt. ]
[You're not wrong!! Malice is quick to return that kiss, of course, though he keeps it chaste for now until Yamato's more comfortable with it. It's sweet, seeing how eager Yamato is as well and knowing that he's made Yamato feel this way.
Of course, there is the lingering feeling that they probably should talk about it... so once they break again, Malice finally settles a bit.]
[ There we go. Yamato uses this opportunity to catch his breath again, since it seems like Malice actually wants to talk about things, and he lets out another quiet laugh. ]
I think I catch your drift, yeah.
[ An understatement, but the way he looks at Malice is incredibly soft, and he can't help himself – he softly presses his lips to Malice's cheek. He'd been wanting to do that earlier, so. ]
[That gets a surprisingly soft, almost shy laugh from him. It doesn't even sound as evil as usual! (It still sounds kind of evil, though.) Malice's gaze darts for a moment as that color returns to his cheeks.]
You treat me so well, y'know. It's kinda... overwhelmin', sometimes.
[A good sort of overwhelming, from the sound of it. He may be used to some brands of physical intimacy, but being cared for like this, being treated gently is something he's never experienced before. It makes his heart beat all the faster.]
I'm just doing what feels right. Glad you're not complaining about it.
[ Look, just because they're...friends? Boyfriends? What the fuck? Doesn't mean they can't rib at each other sometimes. He's sure that if he had both arms at full capacity, he'd be pulling Malice even closer.
For a more serious answer, though: ]
You mean the world to me. Of course I'm going to treat you well – or try to, anyway.
[He knows it goes without saying - of course he doesn't want to hurt Yamato - but he says it to confirm it to himself. He isn't going to hurt Yamato. He's going to do whatever he can to make sure he doesn't.]
Thanks. For bein' so patient with me in figurin' this out.
[He chuckles at that, but he's not embarrassed by it.]
[ At that, he leans in and presses a soft kiss to Malice's lips, just one more time to accentuate his feelings. How much he's been wanting to do this, even if it hasn't been all that long. He's starting to get more comfortable with doing that, too. It's nice. ]
If you wanted time to think, I would've waited. However long you would've needed, I would've given you that time. ... That's what love's supposed to be like, isn't it? Patient and kind.
I know you would've. But I don't need time - I already know what my answer is.
[...]
I haven't really... experienced love. I mean, there were a few times where people did care 'bout me, but most of 'em were so long ago that I don't really remember 'em clearly.
[The woman who took him in is the one who stands out. She was so careful and gentle with him, even though he was far stronger and more durable than she was; she was human, after all.]
Patient an' kind, though... Guess I've got some learnin' to do too, huh?
It's...complicated. Idols aren't normally allowed to date, where I'm from. We're supposed to dedicate ourselves to our fans, and getting into relationships can upset a lot of them.
[ He says this pretty neutrally, like he has no strong feelings about it one way or another. He just knows it's something he shouldn't do, and it wasn't something he'd even considered for a while before then, too. ]
But...there won't be another you out there. There's only one Malice...so I didn't want to walk away from this with any regrets. And I sure as hell don't want to walk away from it without you.
[ It'll be hard. It'll be difficult to work around things, but- ]
[It sounds kind of silly to him, but this definitely sounds like a serious concern that Yamato does have to think about. This is something he's never had to deal with, so he has to trust Yamato's thoughts on it.]
Yeah, I know you will. An' I understand, I feel the same way.
[ He laughs while Malice does that and gently swats his hand away...but he ends up catching that hand in his. He brings Malice's hand to his lips and gently kisses the back of it, over his knuckles.
...
He's so surprised at himself that he can't help but feel a little flustered. Oops. ]
[ Why was he somehow under the assumption that Malice had dated before? Probably because he seemed so sure of himself when they kissed earlier, but like??? Wao. ]
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except that's not what happens. Instead, he's being pulled forward, and no, he doesn't resist, even though his eyes widen when he's been kissed.
It's his first time, and he would've expected something different from Malice if he knew this was going to happen, but this? This is good. This feels right, and he feels his heart pound in his chest as he closes his eyes and returns it. It's definitely a little tentative since this man has never had the touch of another human in his life (joke) but he's happy.
Everything telling him this is a bad idea, that he should back away because there's no way that this'll work out for either of them, is silenced. Yamato may know and meet people who woldn't approve if they found out, but he is sure he won't meet another Malice.
For this reason, he allows himself to be unwise and selfish, and his hold on Malice tightens once more. ]
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slept aroundexperienced with this and he's eager to kiss his... Yamato.At least until he has to break to catch his breath, which would be the perfect time to actually talk about this, but instead Malice decides "fuck it" and kisses Yamato again. His hand rises from the vicegrip he has on Yamato's shirt to gently slide up his neck and settle against the side of his face, always gentle in sharp contrast to the clingy behavior from earlier.]
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He's the first to break away this time, and he doesn't pull away much, but he quietly chuckles and his expression looks rather bashful. ]
H-hey... I'm new to this, so go easy on me.
[ He's mostly joking. ]
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...Nah.
[—or not.]
You'll learn faster the more you practice! An' you'll have plenty of time to practice with me.
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Yamato's tempted to sigh and complain about how Malice is such a handful, but he gets the feeling that the guy's pretty eager. So he quickly works up the courage to initiate the next one – he leans in for a third kiss, and he feels his fingers curl into the fabric of Malice's shirt. ]
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Of course, there is the lingering feeling that they probably should talk about it... so once they break again, Malice finally settles a bit.]
Guessin' that's a good enough answer for ya?
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I think I catch your drift, yeah.
[ An understatement, but the way he looks at Malice is incredibly soft, and he can't help himself – he softly presses his lips to Malice's cheek. He'd been wanting to do that earlier, so. ]
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You treat me so well, y'know. It's kinda... overwhelmin', sometimes.
[A good sort of overwhelming, from the sound of it. He may be used to some brands of physical intimacy, but being cared for like this, being treated gently is something he's never experienced before. It makes his heart beat all the faster.]
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[ Look, just because they're...friends? Boyfriends? What the fuck? Doesn't mean they can't rib at each other sometimes. He's sure that if he had both arms at full capacity, he'd be pulling Malice even closer.
For a more serious answer, though: ]
You mean the world to me. Of course I'm going to treat you well – or try to, anyway.
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[He knows it goes without saying - of course he doesn't want to hurt Yamato - but he says it to confirm it to himself. He isn't going to hurt Yamato. He's going to do whatever he can to make sure he doesn't.]
Thanks. For bein' so patient with me in figurin' this out.
[He chuckles at that, but he's not embarrassed by it.]
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If you wanted time to think, I would've waited. However long you would've needed, I would've given you that time. ... That's what love's supposed to be like, isn't it? Patient and kind.
[ ...Yeah. ]
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[...]
I haven't really... experienced love. I mean, there were a few times where people did care 'bout me, but most of 'em were so long ago that I don't really remember 'em clearly.
[The woman who took him in is the one who stands out. She was so careful and gentle with him, even though he was far stronger and more durable than she was; she was human, after all.]
Patient an' kind, though... Guess I've got some learnin' to do too, huh?
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[ So if Malice is a little more fiery, that's fine. He's not worried. He placed himself in Malice's hands for a reason, after all. ]
Thanks. For not turning me away. I thought I went and messed everything up for a second, but you surprised me.
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...But that'd just be denyin' what we both want, right? An' sometimes you gotta take a risk.
["sometimes" smh]
You gonna be okay with... this?
[Vague handwave to refer to their... relationship? Maybe?]
You said somethin' 'bout it bein' off-limits?
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[ He says this pretty neutrally, like he has no strong feelings about it one way or another. He just knows it's something he shouldn't do, and it wasn't something he'd even considered for a while before then, too. ]
But...there won't be another you out there. There's only one Malice...so I didn't want to walk away from this with any regrets. And I sure as hell don't want to walk away from it without you.
[ It'll be hard. It'll be difficult to work around things, but- ]
I'll figure something out.
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[It sounds kind of silly to him, but this definitely sounds like a serious concern that Yamato does have to think about. This is something he's never had to deal with, so he has to trust Yamato's thoughts on it.]
Yeah, I know you will. An' I understand, I feel the same way.
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[ He's really happy, actually. ]
You're stuck with me, now.
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[And then he reaches up to ruffle Yamato's hair, grinning as he does so.]
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[ He laughs while Malice does that and gently swats his hand away...but he ends up catching that hand in his. He brings Malice's hand to his lips and gently kisses the back of it, over his knuckles.
...
He's so surprised at himself that he can't help but feel a little flustered. Oops. ]
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...You are so sappy.
[...just ignore that he's pretty pink, okay!!!]
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What, are you complaining?
[ Ugh!! He'll look away and lower Malice's hand, then. He's so embarrassed. ]
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[He moves to lace his fingers with Yamato's, expression softening a bit as he holds Yamato's hand.]
It's cute. I ain't used to it. Who knew I even could be flustered, huh?
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Haha. That's an achievement for me, then, isn't it. I'll keep finding ways to surprise you, in that case.
[ Yamato squeezes Malice's hand. ]
This is all new to me, but I'll try not to mess up too much.
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You don't gotta worry 'bout that. It's new to me too, so we'll be figurin' it out as we go.
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It...is?
[ Why was he somehow under the assumption that Malice had dated before? Probably because he seemed so sure of himself when they kissed earlier, but like??? Wao. ]
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closes my eyes
yams.......
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